I would describe myself as a fairly mellow character and i hold passion to few things in life these days. Most days of my life are fairly similar and its not often where something obstructs me from my usual relaxed regime.
I do not fear change, in fact i have been known to encourage it as long as it doesn't interfere with my comfort and happiness. The things i am passionate and arise increased interest to me are usually in the forms of music, films, some T.V. programs, books and occasionally the odd person.
But recently it is becoming more and more difficult to maintain the balance between these things and sleep with little else in between. As college work increases and the expectations of me doing this work increases i can no longer ignore the occasional piece of homework like i did in high school. On top of that apparently you need more than just good college grades to get into a university these days. I was under the illusion they let any old person in who is willing to pay a extensive some of money.
Therefore i now need to occupy myself with something else which can be seen as an advantage to a University, unfortunately the majority of these 'extra activities' cannot be entertained in the comfort of my own home.
So now change is inevitable and people of 'influence' have pretty much forced me towards the path of voluntary work, I'm fairly ambiguous of what it is i can give to society. In most scenarios i see myself offending someone.
I don't really see myself volunteering in an old peoples home because generally the elderly scare the shit out of me. I can deal with old people within my family after years of being around them you grow to understand their ways of life. But other peoples old people confuse and bewilder me. Almost all possess a racist and sexist demeanour which unintentionally socially barricades them from almost everyone.
To be honest almost all voluntary work sounds terrifying other than volunteering to help at a music festival which i am interested in as it can gain you free access, whats not to like?
On top of changing my lifestyle slightly the world is messing with the things i hold dear to me such as films and music. Tarentino films aren't the masterpieces they once were, oasis have split up and somehow they have managed to ruin the only good T.V drama i have come across, Shameless.
Things are moving too fast for my liking. This college year is half over and it seems to me like i have barely been there. Getting a job and money has suddenly become a necessity (neither of which i obtain). Everyone i know is becoming old! Before i know it I'll be in my mid forties trying to cope with a gambling addiction and an unruly vandalizing child whilst sitting on a couch surrounded by litter and food trying to eat cereal out of the cracks between the cushions wondering were all the time went.
